I disappear for months on end and come back with an utterly depressing poem about love and betrayal and no explanation? I'm horrible, aren't I?
This poem was not written about my own circumstances, though, fear not, I am still happily married!! Though I wish he'd do the dishes more often, but that's neither here nor there.
No, see, it's about my sister Taylor (the baby of the family; I have two sisters, fyi). She's a month away from her nineteenth birthday, and she just started school --the same as ME, which is totally YAY-- and she'd been seeing this kid Jack since she was sixteen, and it kind of looked like the whole 'high school sweethearts together forever' type of thing. And then on Saturday, she got a phone call from him (he's at school in California, and is actually a year older than her), and he said he'd fallen for someone else.
Bastard.
Though okay, I get it, people drift apart, and props to him for actually calling her and not texting her or sending her a letter or something. Plus, he had the sense (or coincidental timing, at least), to not break her heart before midterms, because as much as we all love Taylor, I'm pretty sure my mother would have killed her if she'd flunked, even over this.
I'd still like to, I don't know, maybe tear Jack's head off? I mean, two and a half years is a long time, isn't it? And who knows what promises he made that he'll never keep now...
Taylor is dealing, but I can tell she's not the same happy baby sister I once knew.
If anyone has any tips on dealing with heartbreak, please let me know, because I'm at a bit of a loss...
Did I lie?
I said I'd be there
I said I'd call
I said I'd save you from them all
Tell me, did I lie?
I said I need you
I said I'm sure
I said I love you even more
Tell me, did I lie?
I said it first
I said it last
I said that nothing would go past
Tell me, did I lie?
You said forever
I said yes
You said we'd never settle for less
Tell me, did I lie?
Tell me, did you lie?
Tell me, please, tell me, now
Was it all a lie?
I said I'd call
I said I'd save you from them all
Tell me, did I lie?
I said I need you
I said I'm sure
I said I love you even more
Tell me, did I lie?
I said it first
I said it last
I said that nothing would go past
Tell me, did I lie?
You said forever
I said yes
You said we'd never settle for less
Tell me, did I lie?
Tell me, did you lie?
Tell me, please, tell me, now
Was it all a lie?
Notoriously Absent
Though I'm still around, I promise!!
Life is great and crazy, and I'm entering my junior year at school and dealing with living with another person (and not just some crazy dormmate I can ignore, which was fun, but so not real life!) and though my muse is still in action, my sharing with the world is a bit out of action...
First off, though, I shall point you to my dear friend Mallie, who was kind enough to mention me in one of her recent posts:
http://mallieontheroad.wordpress.com/
She's brilliant, to be honest, and I don't know what she sees in me.
HOWEVER...
I shall not be out-done...
Just wait for me, please, I'll be back tomorrow (I hope!) and give you some more radicalness courtesy of me...
:)
Life is great and crazy, and I'm entering my junior year at school and dealing with living with another person (and not just some crazy dormmate I can ignore, which was fun, but so not real life!) and though my muse is still in action, my sharing with the world is a bit out of action...
First off, though, I shall point you to my dear friend Mallie, who was kind enough to mention me in one of her recent posts:
http://mallieontheroad.wordpress.com/
She's brilliant, to be honest, and I don't know what she sees in me.
HOWEVER...
I shall not be out-done...
Just wait for me, please, I'll be back tomorrow (I hope!) and give you some more radicalness courtesy of me...
:)
Wedding cake over-load...
So over the weekend...
I got married!!!
Wow...
I told you these last months have been crazy, right?
And it's nice to get it done before finals...
(Honeymooning will wait until after that)
It was a small wedding, big reception, easier that way, I think, and this, then, is the dress I wore...one of my sisters reads this blog this girl writes on paper dolls (http://www.joechip.net/liana/) and over spring break, I happened to be reading over her shoulder --bad habit, yes, I know! and I saw this outfit and liked it...and when the proposal came through, I immediately thought of that dress. My mother complained for awhile, but I'm stubborn, and why do they insist on white when everyone looks fat that way? So, enjoy my purple dress...or the paper-doll version.
I don't really feel like sharing the real thing, sorry! :)
However, in honor of the blessed occasion, I will share a piece I wrote on a napkin at the reception --note to my fellow writers planning weddings, make sure you have a small notebook included in your emergency supplies!!
Dancing Barefoot in a Purple Dress
Music sways me back and forth
My mind is in a spin
Round and round, laughter rings out
I've reached the fairy-tale fin
Time might stop for now and yet
I couldn't say a word
This bubbling feeling is not champagne
It almost seems absurd
Keeping time in 3 and 4
Someone offers a seat
But I just glide across the floor
Dancing with barefeet
I wish everyone else could be as happy as I...
Lost in a world of desire...
...for free time, anyway...
The last couple months have been uber-crazy and I just don't understand why everything has to move that fast. Can't we slow down, relax, have a good time?
In the meantime, I've written something interesting, so here you are...
Take Me As I Am?
I never meant to keep the secret
I never thought you'd know
If I did this, what was the difference
It only goes to show
That you can't make assumptions
You can't judge a book
You have to realize
And take a second look
The girl standing in front of you is
Different from the norm
Expectations can't change or fix this
Crooked, imperfect form
And you can't make assumptions
Can't stereotype
You have to realize
That sometimes karma bites
The end comes quickly for those who lie
I never thought you'd know
My world's crashing down and I can't think
It only goes to show
That you can't make assumptions
On the things he said
You have to realize
Or you're better off dead
The last couple months have been uber-crazy and I just don't understand why everything has to move that fast. Can't we slow down, relax, have a good time?
In the meantime, I've written something interesting, so here you are...
Take Me As I Am?
I never meant to keep the secret
I never thought you'd know
If I did this, what was the difference
It only goes to show
That you can't make assumptions
You can't judge a book
You have to realize
And take a second look
The girl standing in front of you is
Different from the norm
Expectations can't change or fix this
Crooked, imperfect form
And you can't make assumptions
Can't stereotype
You have to realize
That sometimes karma bites
The end comes quickly for those who lie
I never thought you'd know
My world's crashing down and I can't think
It only goes to show
That you can't make assumptions
On the things he said
You have to realize
Or you're better off dead
